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SO true - made me stop and think!

June 4, 2008 / by mytwoloves

I just read Queenie's blog and I really needed to at this very moment! A huge thank you goes out to her! I am so inspired I am stunned - what a beautiful blog she writes- if people would take a moment out and read it: it helped me out!

Time - so true - it is time to just accept and move on and forgive / forget - time waits for no one. Today is here - yesterday is just gone - no changing what was said and done - just room for change or improvement.

I am so trying to get over my little "hump" - this is why I started to come here and write. I try daily NOT to hurt others and forgive myself for all the mistakes I have made , but at times it is just so difficult. I want to do what is right and I want to be a better person and a wonderful mother. Am I trying too hard or not hard enough? I always seem to either give the wrong impression or say something the wrong way. For years I have gone down a path and turned around because it was just the wrong way - is there a right path out there for me - I guess only time will tell.

I want only whats best for my family - even if what I have already chosen wasn't right. I have made so many errors - why is it easier to forgive others rather than forgiving ones self.

I try so hard not to hurt anyone - but end up causing pain. I shake my head and always wonder "what did I do wrong". I see my errors I did in my past - and I can except them. Its today that I am having a down day , and what do I think about- "The PAST".  All I can say is that my children are my true future!

 

 

8 comments on SO true - made me stop and think!

  • angiedw said 2 months ago

    We are our own worst critics. I do the same thing--berate myself for things in the past, but that is what they--in the past. As long as you are trying to do what is right, that is all that can be expected. You seem to be a very sensitive person who would do no intentional harm. Trust inyourself, believe in yourself, and love yourself, then others will also.

  • mytwoloves said 2 months ago

    SO true- I just want to be nice to others - like I want to be treated! I really need to take a few minutes a day to think things over! I feel like I am always trying to prove myself to others that don't really matter in the end- god only judges in our true end. When I try hard I end up feeling sad in the end! Very nice words - thank you  - I really do need to believe in myself!

  • queenie said 2 months ago

    What your heart speaks - that is who you are.   Your heart speaks kindly and gently.  

    There are those of us that no matter how good we are, how hard we try, we will never be satisfied with ourselves.   We will always feel we could have done better, been better.

    Angie's right - we are our own worst critics.  

    Kids and dogs are the best judge of character.  So if kids like you and dogs like you - you're dong pretty darn good.

    Thank you for your kind words.    This is the first time anyone has actually written about me.  I'm honored.

  • comfortablynumb said 2 months ago

    We've all made mistakes in the past.  However, if we continue to beat ourselves up about what we've done in the past, we prevent ourselves from making up for it in the present and future.

    You are a wonderful woman.  Don't dwell on your past, learn from it and use that knowledge to be the best person you can be.  If you do that, you will be happy with yourself and you will make those around you happy as well.

    I don't know you overly well, but what I've read and what you've said, leads me to believe that you are a sincere, kind, loving woman who has nothing but good to offer the world. 

    Be who you are, a wonderful human being.

  • frogfenatic said 2 months ago

    now it's my turn.. don't be so hard on yourself or be kind to you.. It is so much harder to give yourself a break isn't it.  You are wonderful and deserve the grace and kindness you bestow on others.  Don't forget it Jaime!

  • mytwoloves said 2 months ago

    Tanya - sometimes its just plain hard! Especially when people get you "down" - or talk bad. I guess the saying "life is not always fair" is very true. I know in my heart that I am a good person - that should be all that matters but it hurts me when others think I am not. I guess I just have to lift my head up and smile- because thats what I always tell people!

  • frogfenatic said 2 months ago

    I know it is hard and I"m sorry.  It is much easier said than done and I can't figure out how to not care about what others think of me either.  Maybe we will find strength from one another.  Smiling always helps!

  • Donnamg said 2 months ago

    Time is a funny sort of thing..and, I don't mean in a ha-ha way.  Just when you're trying to figure out the right thing TO do (which means you're looking for an answer for today), you suddenly find yourself thinking about yesterday.  And, you know, whatever you DO do will probably as heck effect tomorrow.  So, how do you deal with the time "thingy" when all you really want to do is have those past life lessons already stored and ready to kick in, make the right decisions and moves today, and avoid consequences tomorrow?  If there was a cut and dry answer, I'd tell it to you...and I'd probably make a million dollars if I did have the answer!...but, all I can say is you have to say to yourself like someone smarter than you is talking to you, and say "THIS is not a yesterday's thing, so it has NOTHING to do with yesterday no matter how much it might look like it or be related...so just think of what your choices are right now".  What can I do?  What should I do?  And, just "list" (in your head or on paper) what your options are...consider them...and choose.  (If you can honestly say, I'm doing this although I know I should have chosen that...then switch to "that"...but, otherwise, hold your course.)  Making the best choices you can, following them through with confidence, and facing each moment like that as you go along will not guarantee no mistakes or regrets but will improve your odds of making good choices.  With that, you will be a better person for yourself and for others (in their eyes and hearts) because your mistakes will not be deliberate or selfish.

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